Counting Children

Awe at mass:

five, six, seven—one more on the way.

Every week; same pew,

Dressed to praise not impress.

One of five I came up—

hand me downs; benign neglect.

Each with his place at table,

we sprouted like sunflowers.

In the catechism,

many mouths a sign

of sure generosity.

Do they judge my two?

Do they retreat

to a world I’m not in? Or—

am I the judge, imagining

life achieved not received,

an arcade high score,

not humble thanks.

A member of Christ’s body,

broken but healed,

loved as I am. But am I—

in their circle?